Yesterday, my family and I headed out in the early morning for a road trip to explore Minnesota, a state we visit annually in the summer. We travelled down roads lined with looming pine trees and passed glimmering lakes that sparkled under the morning sun. We stopped at some landmark destinations, including two lighthouses and… Continue reading A Piece of Chocolate
I was walking around my town last night when I overheard another conversation held by three adult women. I was actually on my way to meet a friend for ice cream - a very big step for me. Anyway, their topic was one not unlike others I had heard so many times before, however that… Continue reading What would happen?
I am discharging from residential and entering into outpatient treatment as of this Tuesday. Though I am extremely nervous, I feel so much more equipped and prepared than my first discharge. I now understand that recovery outside of treatment is not going to be easy or linear. It is going to be an uphill battle… Continue reading Core beliefs
I have been thinking a lot about happiness and the difference between my happiness before versus during the eating disorder. Before, I was truly happy; it was an in the moment, beautiful kind of happiness. I would wake up each morning excited for a new day and I would go to bed content. I… Continue reading Happiness
Tomorrow, I am going back into residential after days of endless debate and contemplation. My choices were either outpatient or residential and my eating disorder more than anything wanted to choose outpatient. Ed told me that I would be fine, that I am more weight restored than I have been since getting anorexia, that I… Continue reading My decision.
Listen to your body, it knows what it needs. For so long, I tried to ignore the signals that my body was desperately sending me. First, it was “stop moving, please rest for just one day”. A regimented exercise schedule left my body tired and defeated and it tried to tell me this in any… Continue reading Listen to your body…
There will be days when you mourn the loss of your eating disorder. There will be moments of anger and frustration and times when you will want to reverse all of the progress you have made. I have experienced these feelings over and over again in treatment. The most important takeaway from this? Recovery is… Continue reading Words are so much easier.